OH MY GOD I GOT IN. I GOT IN THE COLLEGE. I'M MOVING TO BERLIN. I. AM. MOVING. TO. GERMANY.

I'M FUCKING SHAKING. I almost can't believe it. I'm in the next steps to MOVE. TO. GERMANY!!!!! There is still a LOT of paperwork and planning and time going into this. I honestly don't know what else to say. I am just so excited. And I am gonna be busy. But amazingly so. So, so, so amazing.

This is a dream come true. There are still some thoughts. some... I dunno. I was thinking about surprising my ex. I was planning on taking a polaroid photo of my apartment, sliding it into his mailbox with a key and writing "FIND ME" on the photo. It's... a reference. But It wouldn't be appreciated. It's a bad idea. I just... Well I wasn't sure what I was thinking. But once I thought about it for more than 5 seconds I realized it was fucking dumb. I don't know when I'll tell him I moved. or am moving. I don't know anything. I'll be moving alone. I'll arrive alone. I don't know about telling him before I move. I really don't want to face him... not caring. But I'd have to. And it's... fine. This is life.

I'm moving to Germany. It's gonna be good. No matter what.